The power of a picture.
I have the privilege of working with Heather Walker from Columbus Boudior on a weekly basis, providing makeup services to her clients. After much protesting on my part, I conceded her request and did my own session. Since last March I’ve struggled with overwhelming anxiety and shame about my body, but this shoot has helped me start to overcome my fear and negative mindset.
Following my bilateral mastectomy due to my cancer diagnosis in July 2014, I’ve learned to embrace and even love my scars. However, what I’ve struggled most with are the non visible scars from the rape that occurred last March.
Post Traumatic Stress and the symptoms associated with PTSD is something that I battle daily. Feelings of shame, anxiety, depression are just part of my existence. But that does not mean I will allow myself to be a victim of my circumstance. I was apprehensive about doing a shoot mainly because of my pending court case, and I was worried about how it would look to a jury if I was posting revealing pictures of myself for the world to see. But by not following through with the shoot, that would mean I was allowing the rape, and the consequences of the rape to have power over me and my decisions.
I encourage any woman that is struggling with self image or body shame to do a boudior shoot. Most of the women that do a shoot with Heather, are badass single women who are doing the shoot for no one but herself.